you make my heart sing<3

so ive decided to update this more
yea........

ok seriously. what the fuck. i feel like an idiot. idk why but i still dont feel like myself. well actually i do know why ha. its because i had to leave the greatest place in the world and come back here. it was just super hard because i had to leave sooo much behind. i got to be with one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world for 10 days that i barely ever get to see, i made soooo many new amazing friends, and i even met a boy who i actually really liked. and its sooo much different out there. completely different lifestyle. and i felt like i made a home out there. it was the hardest thing ever to have to let all that go..and come back here, where i feel i have nothing. all of my friends are leaving! and its the hardest thing ever to watch all of your best friends go away, when you're stuck here. and to be honest i really dont even really like chicago. its too cold, its dirty, its noisy, you cant see the stars, its overpopulated, and there's nothing but assholes and pervs. but unfortunately this is where i need to be if i actually wanna get somewhere in the world of performing. but idk arizona made me realize that i eventually need to get out of here. that there's a better place in somewhere in the world for me where i'll be happier and will enjoy life more. and i absolutely loved how i could just be myself around everyone out there. like i didnt have to drink or act a certain way for ppl to like me. i could just be my stupid blonde self and people still liked me. haha that sounds so dorky but its totally true. and i have absolutely NO regrets about ANYTHING...but getting involved with matt only made it harder when i had to leave. of course my bad luck with boys had to strike again....i actually find someone i like and who likes me back...but of course he just has to live all the way out in timbuckfucking too. that WOULD happen to me. it just made it sooo much more impossible to leave. and i dont wanna lose touch with him. i mean i know nothing could ever happen between us..but i just think it would be a shame if we lost touch. idk i would just do anything to go back. but most of all i miss anna. seriously idk wtf i would do without this girl. i literally drove her insane tho hahaha. but it was the best feeling ever just spending so much time with her. and even though i got on hers, she didnt get on my nerves once!  she did sooo much for me!! she took care of me when i was too drunk to stand, took me everywhere around AZ, introduced me to all of her amazing friends, and talked with me about EVERYTHING, and i even got to get in on some drama! i just cant believe we've been best friends since 3rd grade. she's definitely my oldest friend and i hope to god i never lose her. idk what id do. i just hope things go back to normal soon. oh and im going out tomorrow. i am def not staying in again i need to get out and get on with my life. well um yea thats basically it haha. the end.

 first entry woooo.

so i just got back from AZ saturday and had the time of my fucking lifeeee!!
seriously best 10 days of my life..no joke

here are some highlights.....

getting on anna's nerves with my bad habits

harassing daisy

"there's a tarantula that lives in that bush u know"

ryan's dog walking on only his front legs

paradise bakery....mmmmm

the movie borat....that we never actually watched

"WATCH ME WALK A STRAIGHT LINE!!"

going swimming with all my clothes on

angelo...HAHAHAHA

my wonderful bowling skills

meeting anna's wonderful friends who think im a complete dumbass haha

smoking hookah in the coke room

the game....fuck i just lost!!!

doing shots with complete strangers in a parking lot

talking about shoplifting while walking out of dillards department store

taking pics in a towel and shower cap

pocketful of sunshine<33

completely dominating at beer pong with alex

"she hit the FLOOR!"

going to buffalo wild wings with 25 ppl.....and ordering 1000 wings

"FUCK DA POLICE!!!!!!!!!!"

matt......

stargazing and getting caught by the cops in the park

sneaking back out at 2 in the morning after the cops followed us home

sleepover at alex's house!

the hawaiin lady that got her legs ripped off by alex

playing truth or dare

my wish on a shooting star that came true<3

staying up with matt until 7:30 in the morning

watching barney and the teletubbies

in n out!!!

completely sucking at rockband with anna and matt

jared playing chicken.....and 3 cop cars and a fire truck coming 10 min later asking if someone is injured

"I'M GONNA FUCK YOU UP!"

the killer horses

getting murdered by trees

devin's fuck-up stick

seaweed wars

shopping til i dropped

trespassing into devin's old house to use the hot tub

"i dare you to take off marie's bra with your teeth!"

devin humping the fence

"why sho sherioush?"

DOG

staying up almost all night  and every night with anna talking about EVERYTHING

falling off anna's bed

dancing like idiots in the car

going to matt's house on my last night

going to the fountain with matt and anna right before i left

baically laughing until i peed my pants constantly

living every moment like it was my last<3

one. fucking. blast.



"it's not goodbye....it's see you later<3"

wuv,
<3marie